overwhelmed.

saw this on someone’s post and liking it:

“Happiness in marriage is not something that just happens. A good marriage must be created. In the Art of Marriage: The little things are the big things. It is never being too old to hold hands. It is remembering to say ‘I love you’ at least once a day. It is never going to sleep angry. It is at no time taking the other for granted; the courtship should not end with the honeymoon, it should continue through all the years. It is having a mutual sense of values and common objectives. It is standing together facing the world. It is forming a circle of love that gathers in the whole family. It is doing things for each other, not in the attitude of duty or sacrifice, but in the spirit of joy. It is speaking words of appreciation and demonstrating gratitude in thoughtful ways. It is not expecting the husband to wear a halo or the wife to have wings of an angel. It is not looking for perfection in each other. It is cultivating flexibility, patience, understanding and a sense of humor. It is having the capacity to forgive and forget. It is giving each other an atmosphere in which each can grow. It is finding room for the things of the spirit. It is a common search for the good and the beautiful. It is establishing a relationship in which the independence is equal, dependence is mutual and the obligation is reciprocal. It is not only marrying the right partner, it is being the right partner.”

we turned two last wednesday; 21/09. we both agree that it has been a good two years mostly because of Jesus. HE truly has been our wisdom and our strength. all we have and have experienced has been made possible by HIS grace and kindness. i dare to say that we live almost perfect lives; we have what we need, want and dreamt about in our younger days. sometimes i feel embarrassed when i reflect on HIS goodness in our lives but i know i shouldn’t. It’s HIS blessings and i will have a heart full of thanksgiving and be a blessing to those around me.

Jesus is good and that is all i need and want to know today. i’m lying in bed at 1059am on a work day wondering why my period came a day late yesterday with bad awful cramps and vomiting that saw me breaking out in cold sweat and limping and groaning and finally Timmy fetching me home from work. my pain did go away as Timmy laid his hands on my sore abdomen and prayed for healing. i must have been exhausted; I slept for two hours.

I’m fine and dandy now. but my head is wallowing in bad thoughts. why did my period come? if it had to really come, why must it be so painful and miserable? if Jesus is for me, these things should not happen to me. I’m embarrassed that these are my thoughts and for writing them here. but what is worse than this is Jesus looking at me now with sadness and hurt in His heart. A child whom He loves so much and gave His life up for is doubting Him.

Jesus, guard my heart and mind lord.

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