i am closer than i know.

i turned on my laptop two hours ago to do some online banking and while waiting for the internet to come on, i started looking into my JESUS bank and clicked on this PDF which was downloaded and saved long time ago. when i came to page 7 and realised that there was a video, i paused and wondered if i should watch the video or just get done with what i wanted to do so that i can get going with my weekend which i had already wasted the first half by sleeping and facebooking.

i let my heart take the lead and watched the entire video. it’s now 5.30pm. an hour has gone. what half a day of sleeping and facebooking couldn’t do, an hour with god did.

it’s almost a year ago that i decided that i wanted to do something different. i wanted to do something fulfilling and meaningful. i wanted to live life. and if l ask myself now if i have achieved what i wanted a year ago, i will have to say its work in progress. living life is not something accomplished in a day or a year. it is a lifelong experiment. but surely i will say with a big grin on my face that i am in a happy place with all that jesus has done for me in the past year and as i look forward to the new seasons he has planned for me, i cannot be thankful enough.

i may have forgotten but He hasn’t. i may have given up but He will not. i may have become careless but He cares.

and all i can do is share what i read with you hoping that His grace will be your strength and that you will know in your heart that you are closer than you are.

PDF can be downloaded from here https://www.yousendit.com/download/dkJxU2VnMm03N0R2Wmc9PQ
and video on page 7.



i am feeling so restless now that even the word restless doesn’t even quite cut it. i just want to be out there walking. just walking. there are tons of emotions inside of me that wants to get out so bad and i am not giving them a chance to. i don’t know how. i don’t know where to start. i feel like screaming. i can feel myself breathing hard. i am trying to drown them with music. i think just walking 10 steps will help. i think some sun will be good for me. maybe i should get out there and run. in this weather we are experiencing right now, running will be brilliant. i don’t think i will make it back. i would die.

so mustard didn’t happen though i was sure it is happening. don’t know what went wrong. am i disappointed? yeah just a bit. why? because its nice to be able to say we got it right at first go. what does that do for us? nothing. maybe an ego boost. is that important? at the end of the day, errr NO. did i cry? yeah forced some tears. forced? why forced? so that i will feel normal.

no wonder my sister says i am lame. i am. or maybe just restless.

fat boy.

I like calling timmy ‘fat boy’ as it best describes him though he will quickly flex his non-existent abs to prove me right as all i will see is three layers of fats.

and one accidental trip to Thomson a few weekends ago brought us to fat boy; a burger joint. good things or at least good food finds happen when we have the car.

since our trip to Thomson many moons ago, a few new eateries have sprang up in the neighborhood. and on that weekend, my fat boy said hello to his kind.


Timmy who had the burger said it was delicious and I had happy yummy breakfast at 10pm! We also had the wings which were really good. Though we both had 3 layers of fats by the time dinner was done, we still managed to cross over for teh tarik and a slow walk!

all thanks to the long good Friday weekend! Praise god!

fishy at greenwood!

we had lunch at a fish joint in this atas neighbourhood a few weeks ago. we were tossing between this joint and pizza and decided on fish as we hardly eat good fish on a daily basis! we were both so glad with our decision as we thoroughly enjoyed the meal! I loved the sweet potato side that came with my fish dish.

because it has been so many days, I can’t remember the name of this joint and the dishes we had. but google is everyone’s best friend and you can’t go wrong with the menu.




to end the fishy meal, I had latte and dear Timmy had some sissy drink followed by a walk around the estate which saw us going ‘ooh ha ooh ha’ and mr rain drove us home!